post-preface: I'm sure something or other in here is going to be used as evidence against my character but fuck it, it's not as if that sort of thing isn't already happening. I also don't expect anything to come of this, per se, but I'm not overly impressed with the situation in general.
So a couple of days ago it was posted on the forums that admin candidates were being taken on, and lollerderby candidated me one round. At first I thought it was a meme thing, but I got access to adminbus and related tools, and at least one other person who'd been candidated before and who IMO would be a quite reasonable choice was told no because "we have enough candidates already" so I figured it was at least somewhat serious. As far as I know I don't catastrophically fuck up and I handle things professionally, except making a note without asking first (I didn't know you had to, and it seemed noteworthy d as far as I know no one removed it) and maybe choosing a less-than-ideal candidate for a certain event type thing. I also look at my notes because let's be honest, anyone in the same situation would do the same thing, and almost all of them were from 2013 (the year I started playing and was also kind of a shit IRL too), with the ones from 2015 either being genuine fuckups or positive notes. I ask for feedback a number of times or if there's anything I could be doing differently and am told, more or less, "you're doing fine," by both of the admintrainers I'd interacted with (lollerderby and shaps). At least one other admin (HBL, I think) says they'd be cool with candidating me again when I'm online. I don't have logs of any of this because I didn't know I'd have any reason to keep logs.
So it's New Year's Day, I don't have work and am not really doing much so I ask to be candidated, I'm told that the admins on can't play a whole round. Fair enough, although this was the second time I'd heard this and I start to suspect I'm being bullshitted, I have no real proof. I log into IRC and am told that HG apparently says I'm either "unstable" or "deranged." Given that this is the first time I've heard of this I ask for clarification and get nothing. Later on today I still don't have shit going on so I log in and ask for candidate, then I am told by Shaps that I can't be candidated anymore because of my opinions on lizards and ERP. This comes as a bit of a surprise because I wasn't told anything of the like before. At this point my internet crashes (which means I don't have logs of the above) so I log back in and am like "wtf" and am told this:
Nothing has changed since yesterday to keep me from being able to recognize obvious bullshit, so I say as much and then get told:-- Administrator private message --
Admin PM from-TechnoAlchemist: yeah shaps is a literal ree ree and canidated people for bad time zones so they cut loose some canidates , also the rushed trial promotions were stupid. tbh shaps doesn't know what they're doing and i'm sorry you got caught in this mess
-- Administrator private message --
Admin PM from-TechnoAlchemist: I'm not lying to you, we kept one (2?) canidates and i guess you were the fan least favorite.
then, about a second later:-- Administrator private message --
Admin PM from-KorPhaeron: One the headmins said not to candidate you that is the truth I dunno what anyone else told you
It's not exactly a secret that I've been against ERP being unbanned since we-all-know-who proceeded to push the line for weeks/months in increasingly brazen and nonstop ways, and that I've been one of the main people posting logs to support my case. (I stopped because people seemed to find it old and because it was December and I have better shit to do during the holidays than look up lizard shit, but the last I checked it had proceeded to plantperson vine/tentacle sex. It also appears that several people have either joined or become active again solely to ERP -- it used to be just two people ERPing constantly, now it's approaching double digits. I genuinely do believe that people just don't realize how bad it's gotten.) I've had a thread in the policy discussion forums about the unbanning for at least several weeks now, if not months, in which I've made my stance clear that this is really not the sort of thing that this server should be supporting or known for. This isn't some fringe opinion -- it was the majority opinion before ERP was unbanned for reasons I'm still not convinced weren't some meme, the polls on the matter have been pretty split, and a lot of admins, including admins I would say I generally don't agree with on policy decisions (Stickymayhem comes to mind) share this opinion.-- Administrator private message --
Admin PM from-Shaps: Truth be told I haven't been involved much with following the stuff on the forums, but HG was the first person to bring up the stuff with lizards and ERP. I wasn't paying attention with it before, but I agreed with him that how you handled yourself there wasn't the greatest. I'm sorry I wasn't really paying attention with it, but you were loller's candidate to begin with so I figured he would be the one to talk to you
(This is a tangent, but I don't know where else to put the fact that HG literally just became headmin a few days ago.)
The only other argument related to this that I can think of is that I say rude things about lizards sometimes on the radio. I don't quite see where this is an issue. If you code a race that is restricted from command positions for fluff reasons of speciesism, this is inevitably going to be the RP result. I'm sure I've made rude remarks over the radio about the clown and/or mime a thousand times, yet I still play clown and mime; I don't fuck with lizards' rounds for no reason as a non-antag and I don't start lynch mobs over the radio as some have been known to do.
More importantly, you'd be hard-pressed to find players who don't shit-talk lizards, including admins. You can literally go into any day of the logs and find numerous examples of this, but I'll just choose the last day public logs were recorded so people don't accuse me of cherry-picking. There's a lot I left out (and it was a bitch to search because one of the op teams chose a certain last name that day) but here is a sampling:
This one gets its own section because it happened literally while all the above was happening:[01:11:18]SAY: Rick Deckard/Kingwest : KILL ALL LIZARDS
[03:05:07]SAY: ChurchGrimm/(Larry Burger) has made a priority announcement: This is CO Burger speaking, I want those fucking lizards killed and their tails taken. OOORAH!
[03:38:41]SAY: Daniel Young/Blaze0223 : No lizards in my bar
[07:46:24]SAY: Ghost/Ausops : fucking degenerate lizards at it again
[17:32:38]SAY: Jennie Fisher/Whoisthere : FUCKING LIZARDS EVERYWHERE
[22:27:24]SAY: Sarah Hooker/Anonmare : AI I'm allergic to Lizards
[23:34:50]SAY: Ghost/Dr. Aura : They're shit tier lizards.
[23:48:40]SAY: Larry Spankenhiemer/Man_Shroom : Shouldn't care about lizards anyway
[01:31:04]SAY: Asia Rodgers/Redblaze3000 : Remove liggers
[12:11:42]SAY: P.A.R.U./Yakumo Chen : Liggers are not human and thus not to be trusted
[13:57:39]SAY: Sean Iseman/Murazor : A reminder that liggers are scum
tl;dr / the complaint part of the complaint: The guidelines for admins -- which I've read, given that I was expected to -- are very clear that if players are expected not to lie to admins, admins are also expected not to lie to players, unless there are extenuating reasons such as suspected metacomms. They also say that professionalism is expected of admins. I don't see evidence of either going on here, and I really don't think this sort of bullshitting and double standards are in line with those rules, especially when that's the exact accusation being made against me, nor is this runaround of telling people 4 different stories, 3 of which might be complete bullshit and none of which are the whole story or anything that could be improved upon. This kind of thing is the exact reason that formal applications and guidelines exist, but if they're there just to be ignored there's hardly any point having them.OOC: TechnoAlchemist: i dont listen to bad players lmao
OOC: TechnoAlchemist: but yeah kill all lizards 2k16